Mauie Flores

It's another birthday for me. This time, I spent it just like any other day of the year. Well... expect for the fact that Ralph and I ate lunch at Mc Donald's and heard mass at Don Bosco ... it was the same errand day for someone like me.

Sounds depressing?

I don't know, I just didn't feel like my usual happy self these past few days. Blame it on the hormones or blame it on someone else... still depends on my mood.

And I hate myself for dishing out all my angst on the ones closest to me. Haay naku... I'm telling you... kawawa talaga sila sa topak ko.

I'm sure you've had one of those days that you wish you can just break all the dishes and slit your wrist with the broken pieces afterwards.

Tried to sing my topak away last night. Selected all Karen Carpenter's songs on my Magic Sing just to lighten up a bit. Kaya lang inubo-ubo naman ako sa usok ng iniihaw na liempo sa dirty kitchen. Hehehe... comedy ba?

Anyway, we had inihaw na liempo and ensaladang mangga for dinner, with Coke (pabigyan niyo na, birthday ko naman e). Watched TV afterwards and went to bed by 9pm.

I had trouble sleeping so I just thought about things. And prayed the most personal prayer I've ever prayed. Felt some teardrops in my eyes after realizing that there's no point in being unhappy at all.

I'm loved. There's a God who loves me and a family who loves me, too. I just have to realize that often.

I'm beautiful. But nobody will see it unless I start appreciating myself more.

I'm smart. Ay, eto , matagal ko nang alam. *wink*

I'm fortunate. Because I'm not only getting my needs but I can also spend on my wants.

So... seems this will be my mantra for the days to come.

I'm loved, I'm beautiful, I'm smart, and I'm fortunate. Tried saying this to myself ten times the moment I woke up this morning.

Now I'm back to my old, happy, and contented self.